This year chinese new year was fun.. cos last year still rmb we first day reach home at 3pm.. 3pm ok.. so borin at home..
now this year we stay at my grandma hs until 9pm..
it was so fun at 7pm to 9pm.. this 2 hrs was the most fun in my chinese new year..
although we reach there at 11am.. we eat then arn 1pm we go to the fish farm..
n it was there tat i photo this cute dogs..
INU chan.. kawaii de sho..
although the last 2 pic was photo at another place..
n when we go to the farm so funny..
cos i didnt tie my hair my hair was flyin everywhere in my ungle's lorry..
this year didnt hav the chance to sit at my papa car..
last year cos im wearin skirt.. but this year really happy tat i wear shorts and we ten brothers all sitted behind the lorry..
ok.. explain the ten brothers, cos my grandma(mama side) hav ten granchildren..
so we call ourself ten brothers.. n im the fifth.. haha..
n im the youngest of all the girls.. 3 gals & 7 boys.. haha..
when bin ho ask me things i dun really heard it n kai lin say i busy with my hair..
haha.. so funny.. they also say sth aboout my boyfriend.. so surprised..
n when we reach the farm, tat time really happy.. he holdin my hand..
whenever im with him im really feel comfortable.. he really my type of boyfriend..
so happy for jus 1 sec..
n my mum even say if find a boyfriend found at least jus like him.. but not my another cousin..
cos they both really surprised me.. now they both dye hair n even hav a earpiece at his MOUTH.. n he even was the youngest at our ten brothers.. he only at sec 2..
it really surprised me..
n dun noe when my mama say that him was his god son.. (cos when he young my mum dun hav us so take him as his god son..)
im really surprised.. haha..
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im really hate myself so weak..
why cant i be stronger??
why must i play in my mum hand??
i really hate her more n more..
why am i live in this world to suffer??
why cant i jus die??
why must she give birth to me and say those things??
i really hate you..
today im really purposely to go home late..
why cant i hav freedom??
JUS LET ME DIE..
but im too weak to die..
sometimes really wan to jump down but in the end im too weak..
i really wan to be stronger..
why cant a car jus crash into me??
this way it faster...........