**usachan no kimochi**

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Sunday, May 31, 2009,10:09 PM

i wan sho kun to be my papa..
he is so kind..
i miss him already..
jus watch himitsu no arashi chan, he was so kind to a child..
i wan him to my papa.. ahh.. sho papa..

really, riida need to be smile more..
then i will like him more..

all my happiness all gone thanks to him..
arigatou gozaimasu..

anyway im not stupid to care about him..
im a person that hate ppl to do very stupid things..
esp spamming..
it jus baka da yo..
look like i care..

ok.. bai bai..

so tired now..

Saturday, May 30, 2009,8:52 PM

yesterday sleep at 2am..
it the latest i got to sleep..
cos busy finding all the kanjani8 lyrics..
n their songs too..
always their songs are so late then come out to dl..
but anyway i hav all of them now..
n finally put arashi n takki song inside my hp..

i really love aiba kun wear pink clothes..
ahh.. really miss him too..
also love his hairstyle..
his hairstyle now is better than last time when i not really like him..
now i love him whole hearted..

really love his smiling face..
i love people's nice smile ..
n make me fall in love with them..

anyway in my class hav this person...
his smile is so good..
but is jus my imagination??
really dun noe..

tonigaku, wan to sleep now..
anyway another 11 day, it will be another normal day to me..
i really hav no hope already..
i dun wan later to be sad if i place too much hope on it..

i cant wait for my holidays..
i wan to play..
ok.. also need to study too..
i nid to go poly.. i really lie too much too..
n i hate it very much..

jaa, mata yo..
bai bai..

Love shuffle

Thursday, May 28, 2009,8:18 PM

taken from love shuffle..

everyone should disappear once in their lives..
by you disappearing, will someone cry??
who will be broken with a hole in their heart..
If there was no one like that maybe the way you had been living your life was wrong..

is there a person who will think of me that way for a long time?

~if i disappear, will there be people hav a hole in their heart??
that the only proof that a person is alive..

if i disappear, will there be a person that hav a hole in their heart..
if there was jus one person, it really enough for me..

anyway watch finish luv-shuf..

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i really dun noe now..
who I am??

anata ai tai..
anata suki desu..
masu masu suki ni narimashita..

anata wa suki na hito ga imasu ka??
why do you always look at me??
is it my imagination??

haiz.. anata hontou suki desu..
maa, ika..

KIMI WA HONTOU BAKA JA NAI...

Wednesday, May 27, 2009,9:49 PM

nante otoko no tomodachi wa nai??
kimi wa otoko no tomodachi arimasen??
baka da yo, kimi..

baka.. baka..
hontou baka ja nai yo..

nante itsumo itte "kimi no oshujin desu ka?"
hontou baka desu yo, wakarimasu ka??
BAKA..

?????

Monday, May 25, 2009,10:34 PM

somehow, hav watch finish SA..
tears hav accidental drop many.. haha..
although in sch was happy in front of my friends..

i even make silly moves..
haizz.. i really dun noe which one is the real me..

nanga, also feel happy in my heart too..
is it becos i can go to taiwan, or even japan in sep??
although not yet confirm, even hav the chance tat it will cancel..

or even is tat im in love?? i really dun noe the feelings..
i always thinkin about him, but in the end didnt really miss him..
my heart also didnt dokidoki when i see him..

or even is my birthday is comin soon..
but i noe for sure no1 will rmb it..
dun noe y i love my classmate singin birthday song for me..
cos i didnt hav this chance.. my birthday is fallin in holiday..
n i feel jealous when others sing it for their frens in other class..
the true is i dun like my birthday fallin in holiday..
the whole 16 years.. although at 17 was an weekend..
at 18 we have a test on tat day.. now 19 really dun noe..

ahh.. i really dun noe..
maybe aft i really gone to japan n see them..
n make all my wish come true..
i can rest in peace already.. cos nth in this world will let me feel wanted..
today again dun feel like living..
n the true is i talk to many guys today.. haha..
ok.. tml will be the fake me again..
but i will try my best to become the real me..
in 19 years no it still 18 years, today hav talk to 3 guys in one row.. haha.. funny right..
today hav change a lot from last week..
change my hairstyle, change my shoes(tata make my leg pain) and even somehow change my character too..
although the most i only talk to 1 guys only.. haha..
ok.. tat for today.. jaa ne..

COUGH

Sunday, May 24, 2009,5:09 PM

i only can say i love being with friends..
everytime with friends make me happy excluded YiXxx..
yesterday goin out with family, all the way sad face..
goin out with them are really boring..

on fri, in sch, are really happy..
make me hav fun.. mayb it was his presence..
at costing, it was the most fun..
cos after lesson im playin with mic..
haha.. but dun noe wat things i say, make my friends laugh at me..
i only can rmb i say sayonara in a very funny way..
lucky, only a few of my friends was there..
cos they are very late to leave..
of cos the earliest to leave didnt heard wat i say.. haha..

it was really fun at that day..
n now i hav cough..
wish tml heal by itself..
tml also hav CA1 costing..
wish myself good luck..

Mood: Shiawase..

Thursday, May 21, 2009,4:44 PM

dun noe y today feel so happy..
feel like im in love.. haha..

although aft test doki doki suru, but feel happy n nervous..
really dun noe y..

on mon too..
maybe tue no nid to go sch..
also maybe because, teacher give me a present although it was only a homemade cake because of my hardwork..

n it was the 1st time i get a present from teacher for test get full marks, although it was a mistake by teacher..
but on that night i cry too..
because it was really 1st time a teacher give me present, not in my life, a teacher give me sth alone.. although some also get it too.. but not many ppl..
but my bro will always get sth, however i will take from them.. maybe because im jealous..
i really dun noe..

donigaku, costing wa ganbatte kudasai yo..
jaa, haya mata ne..

Osoi...

Tuesday, May 12, 2009,11:44 PM

Today so late come in because i jus finish my tying of business proposal..

This few days, i hav sacrifice my time of playin take zenbu yume no tame ni...
i hav long time didnt watch their show although i still watch their drama..
this few days watch the quiz show, really love sho kun.. he so kawaii in it..
yokoyama kun mo kawaii..

i one day didnt see them, i really get very sad..
in the end, i get depression again..
always see them make me so happy..

today also cry alot.. cos of akai ito..
after cryin, then take a bath, make me so refresh and tired too..
really like this kind of feeling..

sometimes i think that if i jus disppear from them, do they ever worry about me??
and today i jus disappear no one ever notices me..

anyway i come back today jus...
YAMADA RYOSUKE to YOKOYAMA YU..
otanjoubi ometetou..

gomen ne, osoi yo..
demo, atashi wa YAMADA chan to YU chan daisuki yo..
hontou anata daisuki yo..
hontou gomen ne..

jaa, mata ne..

私のランキング

Wednesday, May 6, 2009,8:54 PM

私のランキング (2月21日)-> (5月06日)

Arashi 嵐
1.相葉雅紀 Aiba Masaki --------------> 1.相葉雅紀 Aiba Masaki
1.櫻井翔 Sakurai Sho -----------------> 1.櫻井翔 Sakurai Sho
3.松本潤 Matsumoto Jun ------------> 3.松本潤 Matsumoto Jun
4.二宮和也 Ninomiya Kakunari ----> 4.大野智 Ohno Satoshi
5.大野智 Ohno Satoshi ---------------> 5.二宮和也 Ninomiya Kakunari

if u look carefully, ohno satoshi hav risen.. cos when i hav look at kumonori kaisei PV, he look quite cute.. if he hav smile more, i would love him more too.. he smile, i sometimes also smile too.. haha.. and so nino kun drop..

Tackey & Tsubasa タッキー&翼
1.滝沢秀明 Takizawa Hideaki --------> 1.滝沢秀明 Takizawa Hideaki
2.今井翼 Imai Tsubasa ----------------> 2.今井翼 Imai Tsubasa

here surely hav no change.. zutto..

NEWS
1.手越祐也 Tegoshi Yuya -------------> 1.手越祐也 Tegoshi Yuya
1.増田貴久 Masuda Takahisa -------> 1.増田貴久 Masuda Takahisa
3.小山慶一郎 Koyama Keiichiro ----> 3.小山慶一郎 Koyama Keiichiro
3.加藤成亮 Kato Shigeaki ------------> 3.加藤成亮 Kato Shigeaki
5.山下智久 Yamashita Tomohisa ---> 3.山下智久 Yamashita Tomohisa
6.錦戸亮 Nishikido Ryo --------------> 6.錦戸亮 Nishikido Ryo

look closely, yamapi hav risen a little bit too.. but also not too much too.. is jus tat i really dun like ryo chan.. when i do a quiz on who really become my boyfriend in NEWS, the answer is ryo chan.. i really dun want.. but the 2nd time was him too, but the 3rd time was massu.. the answer was massu really really make me happy..

関ジャニ∞ Kanjani∞
1.大倉忠義 Okura Tadayoshi -------------> 1.大倉忠義 Okura Tadayoshi
2.安田章大 Yasuda Shota ------------------> 2.安田章大 Yasuda Shota
3.横山裕 Yokoyama Yu ---------------------> 2.横山裕 Yokoyama Yu
4.渋谷すばる Shibutani Subaru ---------> 4.渋谷すばる Shibutani Subaru
4.丸山隆平 Maruyama Ryuhei -----------> 4.丸山隆平 Maruyama Ryuhei
6.村上信五 Murakami Shingo -------------> 6.村上信五 Murakami Shingo
7.錦戸亮 Nishikido Ryo --------------------> 7.錦戸亮 Nishikido Ryo

yokoyama hav rise.. when i watch the quiz show, inside he look so ikemen & cool.. but dun noe y when i see him, make me want to smile.. cos he acting & his real him are so different..

KAT-TUN
1.上田竜也 Ueda Tatsuya -------------> 1.上田竜也 Ueda Tatsuya
2.中丸雄一 Nakamaru Yuichi --------> 1.中丸雄一 Nakamaru Yuichi
2.田口淳之介 Taguchi Junnosuke --> 3.亀梨和也 Kamenashi Kazuya
4.亀梨和也 Kamenashi Kazuya -----> 3.赤西仁 Akanishi Jin
4.赤西仁 Akanishi Jin ----------------> 5.田口淳之介 Taguchi Junnosuke
6.田中聖 Tanaka Koki ----------------> 6.田中聖 Tanaka Koki

taguchi hav drop.. cos long time didnt see him le.. then kame to jin, i hav their magazine pic in my file so everyday can see them.. haha..

Hey! Say! BEST then Hey! Say! 7
then lastly together Hey! Say! JUMP..

Hey! Say! BEST
1.薮宏太 Yabu Kota -----------------> 1.薮宏太 Yabu Kota
2.高木雄也 Takaki Yuya------------> 1.高木雄也 Takaki Yuya
3.伊野尾慧 Inoo Kei ----------------> 3.有岡大貴 Arioka Daiki
4.有岡大貴 Arioka Daiki ----------> 4.伊野尾慧 Inoo Kei
4.八乙女光 Yaotome Hikaru ------> 5.八乙女光 Yaotome Hikaru

takaki hav rise.. inoo kei drop or i would say dai kun hav rise..

Hey! Say! 7
1.知念侑李 Chinen Yuuri --------------> 1.知念侑李 Chinen Yuuri
1.山田涼介 Yamada Ryosuke ---------> 1.山田涼介 Yamada Ryosuke
3.森本龍太郎 Morimoto Ryutaro ----> 1.森本龍太郎 Morimoto Ryutaro
4.岡本圭人 Okamoto Keito -----------> 4.岡本圭人 Okamoto Keito
5.中島裕翔 Nakajima Yuto -----------> 5.中島裕翔 Nakajima Yuto

morimoto hav rise.. actually i find quite kawaii too..

Hey! Say! JUMP
1.知念侑李 Chinen Yuuri ----------------> 1.知念侑李 Chinen Yuuri
1.山田涼介 Yamada Ryosuke -----------> 1.山田涼介 Yamada Ryosuke
3.薮宏太 Yabu Kota ----------------------> 3.薮宏太 Yabu Kota
3.高木雄也 Takaki Yuya -----------------> 3.高木雄也 Takaki Yuya
5.森本龍太郎 Morimoto Ryutaro ------> 3.森本龍太郎 Morimoto Ryutaro
6.伊野尾慧 Inoo Kei ---------------------> 6.有岡大貴 Arioka Daiki
7.有岡大貴 Arioka Daiki -----------------> 7.伊野尾慧 Inoo Kei
7.岡本圭人 Okamoto Keito --------------> 8.岡本圭人 Okamoto Keito
9.中島裕翔 Nakajima Yuto --------------> 9.中島裕翔 Nakajima Yuto
10.八乙女光 Yaotome Hikaru------------> 10.八乙女光 Yaotome Hikaru