heaven & hell
Sunday, August 30, 2009,7:42 PM
sometimes really feel so fake now..
although past few months really feel refreshed n light..
but look like goin back to the old n dark me again..
jus like im in hell first then heaven n again hell now..
but im really happy tat i can go JAPAN..
1. Hui yee
2. ME
3. Jasmine
4. Zhi hao
5. Janice
6. Bin han
7. YiLin
8. Pei shan
however, jus feel like endin my life..
Do i hav real fren in class??haiz..
emm.. dun noe wat will happen tml...
Lets see...
So??
Friday, August 28, 2009,2:55 PM
Even the answers is "I LIKE YOU"
SO??
i dun even care for it..
i really dun hav feelings for him at all..
actually i kind of hate Jacky..
but dun noe y, so surprised he treat me today for the mooncake by mrs Lee..
emmm.. c 1st if it true..
cos mrs lee haven make it yet..
when the time come, he may told me to hand him the money..
emmm.. maybe he will do tat...
but today really feel so fake again..
feel like i laugh so fake..
but when jacky treat me, feel a little bit better..
cos kind of surprised..
hahaha..
now tired too..
arhh.. forget to thanks to kok wei ytd..
he treat me too..
feel a little bit better tat time..
ok.. later go n meet kenneth..
feel like we are couple, but the true is im his master..
hahaha.. he wan to teach him acc n costin mah..
ok.. mata ne..
this is the true..
Thursday, August 27, 2009,10:37 PM
everytime i see a cute guy on a street, is it means i will like them too??
i also say jerome is cute, means i like him too??
then i like every cute guy on a street??
it really funny..
n this is the conversation between me n jacky in msn.. "CUT"
J: face the truth lar..
J: stop running away lar..
J: inside you.. you want me to care..
M: hahahaa , so funny
J: see..
M: i like is someone else but not u LOL
J: this is the sigh of escaping your problem..
M: it the truth lol, my fren noe who i like de
J: SAM right..
M: vomit blood
J: just become JOKE OF THE DAY.. LOLS..
M: u say tat someone will get angry
J: who ? lols..
M: y nid to tell u
J: cause you like SAM..
M: haha, i like is handsome guy
M: today so fun aft u go back to sch
J: of cuz lar..
J: you and jerry mah
J: you like jerry right
M: hahaaha, how come it jerry n me liao
M: tat time u say is sam
M: hahaha
M: so nxt time is taufiq
M: hahahah
J: sam is impossible..
J: taufiq is not so impossible..
J: only jerry POSSIBLE..
M: hahhaha
M: then kenneth or jerome?
M: jia hui or geoffrey?
M: who turn nxt
J: geoffrey..
J: she is your sis..
J: you girl mah..
J: and your angry is like FLIRTING lor..
M: if i flirt also dun wan to flirt with u loh
J: you sure or not..
J: HAHAHA, you mouth say dun lar..
J: you body say.. pls flirt with me..
M: is u flirt with me loh
M: i didnt talk to u then is u first talk with me leh
J: see.. now also flirt with me..
J: haiz.. you like me isit.. hahahaha
M: hello, u talk to me 1st hor
J: see.. fake angry.. LOLX..
M: ok i like jerry
M: i also dun wan to like u loh
J: you mean JACKY isit.. lols.. Both Js..
M: ok i like jerome
M: he also J
M: LOL
and now they sayin i like jerry..
wat the fuck..
they just go and die lah...
even the quiz say im 100% evil..
YES I AM!!
i see him dun even heart beat go fast..
it really not the same as im seeing RQ last time..
so the true is im not even like him...
PLEASE DUN SAY IT AGAIN...
I REALLY HATE IT..
girls are scary too..
,3:16 PM
there are some things tat dun say it out are better..
if u say it out, nothing good will happen..
wat more today feel restless cos of parents..
i hav say today lesson start at 10..
but when they reach home is arn 8.45am aft bring my bro to sch..
n they was surprised tat im still home..
it obvious tat they dun wan me still at home..
then also argue with mama, cos she compare again..
i really hate ppl to compare..
haiz.. tml dun feel like goin to sch..
anyway holiday are comin..
yeah~
i nid to catch up all those drama..
Church~
Saturday, August 22, 2009,10:17 PM
today goin out with ailin..
ya so fun..
although there also 5 guy dun noe..
they all is ailin church fren..
then all of them also like japanese stuff.. ^^
we go ION orchard walk walk..
then very funny, i talk to a japanese guy..
really feel so crazy..
I REALLY LOVE JAPANESE!!
then aft tat arn 5pm we go to their church..
it my 1st time goin to a church..
but i dun wan to become a christian, cos of 1 stupid reason..
i didnt say to ailin yet..
cos in japanese there only 1% is christian..
but then mostly japanese didnt really hav a believer..
however they hav pray in temple..
ok.. i noe is stupid of me..
but it really touch my heart when they say things..
but mostly i dun really understand.. hehe..
but it really nice.. ^^
emm.. i noe i hav depression..jus tat u didnt see my blog b4..i noe myself hav depression so u dun nid to say it out loud..ok.. tired already...
mata ne..
the list of my thanks will be out soon..
took long already..
today was fun~
really thanks to ailin, if not i will surely stay at home n rot..
ureshii~
Friday, August 21, 2009,11:04 PM
this whole week so happy..
start with mon, 17 aug, durin break time, we go out n eat..
it was really fun..
on the way, we even play around..
ok.. is me playin with jacky, also play a little bit with siew feng too.. ^^
altogether 10 ppl go out jus to eat n come back for lesson..
at first we goin to KFC but then there too many ppl so go food junction..
of cos i choose japanese food...
dun even noe jerry also go n eat too..
so we sit at a long table of 10, so i sit at the end all the way..
the sittin arrangement : (start from bottom right & upper right)
me, amirul, luo shan, jacky, hui yee, jerry, li yan, jasmine, siew feng n wei ling..
hehe.. it was really fun..
but how does he noe tat i lookin at jacky's food?? haizzz..i really feel comfortable with many ppl around me..
i really hate to be alone..
then tue 18 aug, stayin back for icecream..
nth special happen jus tat finally see farhanah..
she say wan to meet mei too..
19 aug mornin meet luo shan to go sch..
on the way in mrt see kok wei..
so we three of us go together..
hehe.. also play with kok wei too..
20 aug, go sch alone, but also feel so refresh..
dun noe y.. jus feel happy..
maybe jus talkin to frens make me really really happy..
today 21 aug, sw play basketball again..
quite fun too.. also play with big bro taufiq..
he also treat me nuggets.. hehe.. ^^
then jerry own me 5 bags of food.. hahaha..
today i was really happy.. aft sch also walk home with siew feng they all..
it was so fun too..
although i didnt talk much but i like the surroundings around me..
maybe becos there many ppl at tat time..
oh ya.. in class when luo shan call me to her table, ask me question abt acc..
then when i hold the table with two hand, i ast as a dog when jasmine see me..
haha.. it was so funny..
then i see hui yee n jerry like .........., but both of them didnt see it..
jus see both of us laughin.. haha..
do i look like hana yori dango korean version of makino??
but y does he say tat?? wat does it mean??
anyway.. update the list for yew nian.. haha.. ^^
1. Faseha
2. Pei Shan (GOIN)
3. Me (GOIN)
4. Kenneth
5. Zhi hao (GOIN)
6. Bin han (GOIN)
7. Yi Lin (GOIN)
8. Yew Nian (GOIN)
9. Jasmine See (GOIN)
10. Jasmine
11. Jennifer
12. Siew Feng
13. Hui Yee (GOIN)
14. Jerry
15. Amirul (GOIN)
16. Janice (GOIN)
17. Lya (GOIN)
these ppl hav hand in the form but still not sure if selected..
i really scared tat im not bein selected..
if really dun hav, i really dun noe wat will happen to me..
haizz...
n jus now get angry for nothin..
jus tat i say i tired, n she say becos wear contact lens lah, make my eyes tired..
then nag nag, say some more unrelated things..
i only wear for 4 hrs, how come will easily get tired meh..
tat time when i hav fever, she even say becos i sleep late..
will ppl sleep late will get fever meh??
jus....... haiz....
i really dun noe how to say...
anyway.. i go n sleep now ba..
tml goin to meet ailin... hehe..
cant wait.. ^^
JAPAN TRIP
Saturday, August 15, 2009,7:16 PM
ok.. im really goin to japan..
my parents dun want to go taiwan liao..
haha..
ok.. the true is i dun wan them to go.. ^^
they changin to hong kong..
cos taiwan hav the flood..
haha..
im confirm goin to JAPAN..
b4 tat im still confused but now confirm liao..
haha..
they now talkin about hong kong trip..
haha.. so happy..
cant wait to go japan~~
but i also feel numb..
sometimes jus wan to give up everything..
my life especially..
these few days watch drama only..
haiz..
CAN I GIV UP??
NO1 IS PULLING ME UP...
haizzz
Friday, August 14, 2009,9:44 PM
i really dun noe wat to choose..
my parents goin to taiwan at 15 dec for 8 days..
then japan trip hav 7 days, then 4ppl not goin liao..
4ppl confirm goin, then the rest still not sure..
haiz.. really dun noe wat to choose..
the list of those ppl tat wan to go n those who not goin.. rest they not sure..
1. Faseha (X)
2. Pei Shan (GOIN)
3. Me (GOIN)
4. Kenneth (X)
5. Zhi hao (GOIN)
6. Bin han
7. Yi Lin (GOIN)
8. Yew Nian
9. Jasmine See
10. Jasmine Ow
11. Jennifer
12. Siew Feng (X)
13. Hui Yee
14. Jerry
15. Amirul (X)
of cos teacher nid to choose..
haiz..
ok.. nid to wait for mon..
mata ne..
??
Thursday, August 13, 2009,9:26 PM
how come my blog become like this??
y cannot put pic??
aiyo.. im thinkin wan to put pic...
nvm.. today im happy..
will not get angry..hehe..
cos today at icecream so fun...
i really like to hav many ppl around me..
when there was a time when i was alone, i really daydreamin..
n wei ling saw me daydreamin.. haha..
today hav fun with all ppl..
i really dun wan to left alone...
really like this kind of crowded things with frens..
i cant live without frens.. :p
n wat more really cant wait fro tml..
we goin to hav a briefin about japan trip..
I WAN TO GO!!
ok.. sleep early..
arh.. my acc haven do yet..
ok.. mata ne..
hp charging~
Wednesday, August 12, 2009,10:51 PM
my hp is still chargin so the pic will put inside in the nxt post..
today feel strange..
many ppl treat me very good today..
teacher Mrs lee even giv me things..
hehe.. so good..
then miss tan say about japan trip, so nervous..
cant wait already..
when teacher say we goin on dec 14, for 1 week..
then my parent also say they goin to taiwan on dec 15..
so i nid to choose 1 place to go only..
n of cos i choose japan..
waitin for fri to come, teacher will say more info about it..
cant wait..
of cos our relationship with them, feel so awkward now..
feel so stress now..
then today go to RP, feel so stress too..
i really dun wan to go there..
everytime i go there, all his memories will come back..
keep thinkin he was study there now..
haiz..
i really wan to forget about him..
then aft sch feel so strange too..
he was so strange.. really really strange..
ok.. nvm.. wish tml is a better day..
better go sleep now, scared later cant fall asleep..
jaa, mata ne..
on these 4 days..
Monday, August 10, 2009,10:53 PM
---on fri 7 aug---when teacher ask me things about sg, i really dun noe anything..
y should i care..
i wan to mirgate to japan..
so when he ask, i really dun noe..
but in the end giv me 1 lollipop, helps from my frens.. :)
taufiq hav buy kite to fly..
very fun.. (some details from last post)
actually on tat day i wan to go out with frens..
luo shan n zhi hao say they wan to go tampines, but they wan to look for frens..
at first i tot it very far, then rmb suping, she at there..
so msg her if wan to meet as we long time didnt meet already..
but she tired too.. so reject me..
then i rmb mei, msg her if can find her at woodlands..
actually im sorry to her, she didnt reject me, is always me tat reject her..
really sorry to her..
so walk out together to mrt with amirul n kenneth..
but when reach amk, so tired..
so in the end reject mei..
so when home, so tired tat i fall asleep..
from 2.30-5.45pm, so in the end at night not tired already..
so i tell my mum, u noe wat she say, she say then y sleep??
ok.. wat am i goin to do if i didnt sleep, play com when my bro was using??
doin hw when i dun feel like doin..
wat am i goin to do??
DIE??
ok.. when she say tat, it fine with me..
---Sat 8 Aug---goin to celebrate shu hui 21st bd on national day..
hehe.. same as taufiq bd..
but when im 21bd, dun wan to celebrate with them..
they only noe how to compare others..
so i really hate to compare things..
i am who i am..
i do things that i wan to do..
n really thanks to kenneth, he sms me for the whole day..
if not i will really bored to death..
although not really whole day, he reply always very long & for 2hrs+ i go swimming..
then he go gym, didnt msg for 2hr+ too..
so not really whole day..
then later arn 8.45pm, sms taufiq wish him happy birthday..
hehe.. chat with him and kenneth together..
really thanks to them..
chat with taufiq was so fun..
taufiq make me smile and kai lin(my cousin) saw it..
haha.. i love taufiq..
i really love those ppl tat treat me nice..
so i hav say to luo shan b4 tat i love many ppl..
i also love her too..
zhi hao too, even though he say he wan to scold me, but in the end didnt even scold me..
even treat me take cab with him..
i love him too.. :p
---sun 9 aug---today stay at home, play com finally..
then start playin facebook for the 1st time..
i jus wan to play the quiz n some games only..
also do a bit of hw..
then kenneth say he wan me to teach him acc & costing..
so meet him tml..
amirul & luo shan busy so didnt meet them..
our dinner was bee hoon, my mum cook early so to watch the NDP..
ok.. i jus drop a little bit..
and u noe wat she scold me, she say "da ma de"
i noe it was not a serious remarks, but it really really hurt me alot..
even some simple remarks can hurt me..
so at night cry, i tot i will not cry antmore..
but in the end cant control myself..
i think my last cryin was on my birthday..
ok.. tat good.. didnt cry for 2months..
sometimes i hate go sleep..
cos tat the only times i get alone by myself..
ok.. didnt sleep until 4.30AM..
make me tired for kenneth date tml..
--- mon 10 aug---
so i hav a date with kenneth..
but goin out with him really bored..
cos we only study, aft tat walk walk a bit..
i go n buy pens at popular..
at first i wan to watch HP, but look like it hav end..
also noe some secret about taufiq and jerry..
hehe.. :P
we also walk walk amk hub..
then go play zone X..
ok.. not so fun..
so in the end GO HOME..
ok.. thanks to him, i past my mon..
if not i really dun noe how to live today..
and finally tml coming..
cant wait to see all my frens..
wow~ write this for 1hr..
it long..
ok.. jaa, mata ne..
Hmm~
Friday, August 7, 2009,9:59 PM
Today i didnt go crazy..
then didnt hav the chance to play kite..
but it fun today, see jacky n taufiq play kite so funny..
it really nice to watch so many kite..
esp 1 of the big big kite, the tail so long so nice..
but it didnt fly long, if long will be nice..
ok, tue can see all my fren again..
really wish if some1 can pull me up again..
really wish tat i can tolerate these few days..
isshouni ganbatte ne..
jaa, mata ne..
hahaha..
Thursday, August 6, 2009,9:41 PM
tml im goin to go crazy~
i wan to hav fun..
FuN FUn fUn TmL~~
hAhaHa..
tired~
Wednesday, August 5, 2009,9:53 PM
ytd cant really sleep cos whole body pain..
mayb durin nap time, didnt sleep properly, sleep in a strange position..
now really tired.. x.X
today aft sch also feel strange..
cos kind of happy when there was a large group of ppl goin out sch together, although it was rainin..
when i ask xue qi y dun wan to eat together as we aft tat hav hobbycraft together with hui yee..
then she say the group so big..
but i really like it when there was a large group of ppl even though i surely keep quiet at one side..
it really make me feel comfortable when there was a large group of ppl..
haizz..
oh ya.. today was wei beng birthday..
my beloved cousin.. haha..
he was the only cousin i like..
i also say i nid to thanks for all the ppl they help me, im still writtin..
cos kind of forget some ppl name.. :)
also wish fri can hav fun..
i wan to hav fun..
teacher say we goin to fly kite, i wan to fly can??
cos tat time fly so fun with my cousin at pasir ris..
i wan to fly it again although tat time kejin help me..
haha..
i wan to hav fun on fri~~
jaa, i go n sleep now.. ^^
mata ne..
I really dun like to stay at home..
Sunday, August 2, 2009,10:07 PM
honto ni dai kirai..
this 2 days, really hate it..
ytd i jus sleep n sleep..
haiz.. then today also sleep a little..
i really hate to stay at home..
when u see me at home, u will notice tat i will be another person..
while in sch are a cheerful person, at home, jus cant stay happy..
i only happy when i see them..
watchin hma, ans n VSA.. nice..
miss them already..
all is arashi shows, cos no1 update kattun show, so watch arashi only..
but to me, im really happy already..
tml goin to sch..
yeah~
jaa, mata ne..
[Alan Dang]